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Pathologic | Мор. Утопия

ANATHEMA–THÁNA–ATHAMÉ
Length: 97290 words, 14 chapters, 247 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Nov. 1 2022
Language: English.
Rating: Mature.
Summary:
^{Daniil Dankovsky / Artemy Burakh}

“All stories are about Death, except the ones that are about Life, which by deduction are also about Death. All dreams are about devouring, except the ones that are about throwing up, which by deduction are also about devouring. Everytime Burakh would dream he would eat: he would eat voraciously, passionately. His teeth would tear through the thread binding waking world and sleeping world like he was pulling stitches. Like he was trying to pry himself open. And he was: at the threshold of that wound, between the open lips of this parted cut, laid and lived the snaking path of his ways; the rope he was to walk to the knowledge of the Earth and the knowledge of everything else.”
Burakh comes home to nothing, and to something else entirely. Waking, walking dreams bear witness to him (and he bears witness to them) — a long story about strings of dreams for the dream-eater, and what he finds in that lingering hunger: death and defiance, life and love, and all of their satellites.

Nyctinastic Martagon
Length: 15213 words, 1 chapter, 34 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Dec. 3 2022
Language: English.
Rating: Explicit.
Summary:
^{Daniil Dankovsky / Artemy Burakh}

“Burakh remembers the first time they had slept together (not like that, not yet); how they had tried to fit both of their selves side by side on Dankovsky’s single bed — how they had managed, somehow. He remembers the electric feeling of skin against his; how Daniil’s legs entwined with his like oaken roots, how the hairs on his arm brushed against him like hyphae. It’s that, then, now, for now; it’s something entirely different. They kiss now like carrion birds.”
An invitation of Dankovsky’s to a gala celebrating the triumphs of modern medicine (and his new work recalling the common fight against the pest) makes its way to Town-on-Gorkhon. Him and Burakh quite missed each other.

Oh, the hands that will hold you home.
Length: 24890 words, 4 chapters, 51 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Nov. 11 2021
Language: English.
Rating: Teens and Up.
Summary:
^{Daniil Dankovsky / Artemy Burakh}

And when all is said and done, when there’s no more blood to wash your hands of, who do you still need to look in the eye?
Who will look at you? When you’ve taken the flame of magic and put it out with your own fingers,
whose home can you walk into, head tall?
Diurnal ending (a choice of love, like any other) and what’s in the silence that follows.

Thaumaturgic Arborescence & the Architect's Traumaturgy
Length: 19862 words, 1 chapter, 43 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Jul. 27 2023
Language: English.
Rating: Mature.
Summary:
^{Farkhad, Andrey Stamatin, Peter Stamatin}

This one didn’t quite feel like them, like the rest. Andrey almost felt agitated by a shiver of excitement — newness, again, finally at once, for once. He kept himself from rejoicing too much, too early — the man still had chances to be disappointing, as most men, even the most charming, were.
He sat opposite the twins, themselves in separate chairs. His coat was a striking, startling red against the vert-de-gris stripes of the settee, so painfully carmine it looked like its damask had been woven in blood itself [...].
As they sat, the Kain men, each at their turn, introduced their guests to each other in superlatives, in almost-religious exaltation. [...] As their lungs swelled with pride for the stranger’s works, something coiled around the brothers’ necks, unnervingly taunting, something akin to mistrust, to incredulity, tinted by the black ink of jealousy — something they wouldn’t have admitted so early, if at all. All the man did was nod conservatively, humbly; as if observing instead of listening. 

Know thy friend well, thine enemy better, and he who walks the tightrope between the two more than the sum of that threefold.

Apollo Sauroktonos Emerging from Still Waters
Length: 21404 words, 1 chapter, 55 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Mar. 14 2024
Language: English.
Rating: Mature.
Summary:
^{Farkhad, Andrey Stamatin, Peter Stamatin}

His voice was chthonian and soft to the touch, rounded like the back of a beast as it rolled over his tongue.
Oh, the house was for him. (Or he was for the house.) Maybe it had been the plan since the beginning, or maybe this was a lucky, opportune coincidence; what other people could have called a blessing.
Once they would be gone — dawned upon Petr — he would never come back again, but this place, as him, as his, would stand. The Cathedral, as him, as his, would still stand. The house was not filled with music, but with voice. Felt like it regardless.
They needed to convince the Kains. They had no other choice.

What choice was there even to have? We will never know. This is a story about the Oneirotects, about the house that lies still and restless, and about men who do quite the same..

Pierrot Sur Le Rivage
Length: 10869 words, 1 chapter, 27 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: May 19 2023
Language: French/Français.
Rating: Teens and Up.
Summary:
^{Stanislav "Stakh" Rubin / Peter Stamatin}

« Ça vous vient souvent, de hanter ce bar pour trouver des gens à qui demander de poser ?
— Ça m’arrive.
— Comment vous les choisissez ? »

(Oh, il a très envie, mais ça serait bien trop insolent et cavalier, de demander : qu’est-ce que vous me trouvez ? )

« Hmm », fredonne d’abord Piotr, pensif, essuyant son pinceau sur un bout de tissu taché. « Un beau nez, commence-t-il, de belles mains… Des yeux avides, des traits fougueux…
— Et pour moi, c’était quoi ? »
Piotr lui sourit. Rubin sent son cœur faire voltige dans sa gorge. « Si je vous le disais, je crains que ça ne vous monte à la tête. » (Rubin sent sa bouche s’assécher.)

Rubin se traîne jusqu’au Cœur Brisé pour y noyer son deuil, et mord à l’hameçon d’un drôle de petit poisson.

L’Inconnu au Brûle-Gueule
Length: 8180 words, 1 chapter, 21 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Feb. 6 2022
Language: English.
Rating: Teens and Up.
Summary:
^{Stanislav "Stakh" Rubin / Peter Stamatin}

When Rubin walks in, the Loft smells of ink, marble, graphite, stale bread, bitten wood.
It grows around him with curious eyes.
His host meets him with quite the same.

Tenderopen Be Sir Carrion
Length: 9927 words, 1 chapter, 21 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Oct. 7 2024
Language: English.
Rating: Explicit.
Summary:
^{Stanislav "Stakh" Rubin / Peter Stamatin}

“I wanted to get in, you wanted to leave, and both of us are stuck here now,” Rubin simply shrugged. “Shall we walk together?”

By the Graces, was he bolder now? Rubin had never been the shy type — being reserved was different. He’d taken when he had wanted. [...] He had never been this bold about wanting (taking) company, but he had so far taken the Architect’s when offered.

“Will you have me?” Peter asked.
“You’re not any worse company than I have had.”
“Oh, you!” Peter barked out one of his glassy laughs. “Flattery won’t get you anywhere.” [...]

(And maybe he was lying a little, for it probably would get Rubin somewhere, if he meant it hard enough, and if Peter felt he meant it hard enough. Peter had painted him, hadn’t he? This was not always flattery — but in that moment, in these hands, between these eyes and these four walls, it had been. Maybe they were even, now.)
They had been staring at each other. Maybe Rubin had read this thought on him as plainly as someone else did on the page.

Men meet. They have little to tell each other that words can convey, speaketh flesh in their steads.

Ce Verre Levé aux Prêtresses de Cypris !
Length: 2866 words, 1 chapter, 7 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Jan. 20 2022
Language: English.
Rating: Explicit.
Summary:
^{Eva Yan / Yulia Lyuricheva}

Eva invites herself in, welcomed without asking, slipping through like light.
She brings her affinity for velvet and silk, for the twirls of incense, for the greens of twyrine; she brings her empyreal glow that fills Yulia’s house like a heart with blood.
She likes Yulia's silver, pale hands on her hallowed, supernal skin; Yulia likes her solar touch, her constellations-eyes.
They like to learn from each other — and quite a few more things.

Metal Gear Solid

Vigil
Length: 4440 words, 2 chapters, 12 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Feb. 20 2020
Language: English.
Rating: Mature.
Summary:
^{Solid Snake / Hal "Otacon" Emmerich}

Snake is dead.
Snake is dead, the accelerated aging having claimed him, and Otacon can't say he didn't expect it.
But between expecting and being prepared to handle the aftermath lays a deep dark sea he cannot quite find his footing in,
and navigating alone has led him to quite a few bad decisions and slipping in and out of too many sleeps.
(It's not as sad as this summary makes it seem, because I'm lying to you!)

À la lumière de l'amour de ma mère
Length: 14312 words, 4 chapters, 32 pdf pages.
Date of original publication: Feb. 6 2021
Language: English.
Rating: Teens and Up.
Summary:

"The strange, cylindrical shell had come to them with an eight-inch floppy diskette.
Snake liked to hold it up and look through the central circle, observing Otacon across the room.
It was labelled with a simple white tag: a string of incomprehensible numbers, a year, a location that had been written over a few times, and, in a dulling red ink, the words 'BS-Imago'."
Hal gets possession of the Mammal Pod. The memory boards only wait for him to pull them out.